Coming to Terms With Ourselves Part 1
Sometimes I wonder if people understand who they really are. I guess it's so true then that sometimes people see ourselves so much clearer than we do ourselves. Like take for example, it may be hard for some people to know or accept that they have a very emotional personality or they are always in denial of themselves.
One of the things people tend to realise when they go through difficult times, hurts and dissappointment, is that they learn so much about themselves. Some people realize that fact but some may not so, at least consciously. Why are we sad, why do we get hurt by such and such comment, why are we so slow to understand things people say, why do we worry and why such particular worries and the list goes on.
Everyone grows in maturity as they learn more about themselves and come to terms with who they are. Some people we may see, always live in denial, unable to accept who they are and blame other things around them for the consequences. It is I guess, a form of self-defense at times when we do such a thing. I mean, most of us would see ourselves deep inside out hearts as "nice guys" with good intentions, but these are not the true reflection of who we are.
Face it or not, we are born sinful, and we have our selfish ambitions, pride, lust, envy and self-interest, hiding somewhere in our closets. It's a sad day when we finally realise that's who we really are deep inside, and are "noble" or "selfless" cause may all be just a form or self-righteousness in disguise. It's even a sadder day, when these "sins" of ours hurt the ones we care and love the most.
It is this stage I guess, that even Paul understood the depravity of the human heart. We are indeed all sinful, not just sinning, but sinfull in our hearts. At almost every moment, the roar of rebellion and the sounding of self righteous trumpet, keeps orchestrating in every thought and heart of ours, deafening any form of reproach or warning may come from our conscience.